I read in another blog this week about a little boy, Carl, age 11, who committed suicide because he was excessively bullied. The bullies tormented poor Carl calling him “gay.” Kids use that word so freely, but lately it seems bullies know exactly what is implied by that word and know how to use it to hurt.
A few moments ago I checked the Atlanta Journal-Constitution’s website as I frequently do throughout the day and a story popped up about another little boy, this time in Decatur (just east of Atlanta) who committed suicide this past Thursday. Again, this little boy, Jaheem, was tormented by bullies and called “gay” and a “snitch.” So poor Jaheem internalized his pain and sorrow, never telling anyone the full extent of his situation.
My heart is breaking for these boys and for children who will face bullying at school tomorrow. Kids who are scared shitless about getting on the bus, getting off the bus, walking into the bathroom alone, afraid of going out on the playground, who fear walking down the halls between classes, who try never to stay out of the teacher’s sight, but fail. These kids are scared to tell, scared it’s their fault, scared no one will listen, scared of what other kids will say.
I was this kid every so often in middle school, but thankfully I have a pushy mother who doesn’t take shit and won’t let my brother or me take shit either. And I feel so thankful that she instilled that belief in me, so that no matter what, I politely stood up for myself and did my best to stand up for others. I still struggle with this, but I am not the kind of person who will let someone be rude to my face and get away with it.
I distinctly remember walking home from my middle school one day to follow a crowd of “popular” kids taunting and throwing small rocks at another kid, Sam. I’ll admit that I thought Sam was a total dweed, and I’d probably made a “not-the-best-choice” remark to him once or twice, but I rushed to his aid and yelled at the other kids. I screamed that I would go back and get the principal or beat the crap out of them with my viola case. Either way, they started railing on me and maybe even threw some pebbles at me, too. And Sam didn’t even say two words to me.
I probably have not been so noble since, but I occasionally think back to that moment and get sick to my stomach thinking about that awful bullying situation. Their words hurt me, too, and I even began to second-guess my actions. And it makes me think about kids who get the full brunt of bullying every day and how terrible they feel. They feel like they are to blame, like they must have done something wrong to deserve this. I think about the kids in the schools I substitute teach in and I wonder tonight how many of them are victims of bullying.
Bullying victims are not to blame. I blame the adults who do not do everything in their power to stop the bullying, those who know it’s happening. Teachers are so busy- middle and high school teachers see maybe over 100 kids a day, have lessons to plan, papers to grade, meetings to attend. Parents are busy with work, busy making dinner, busy with bills or their budgets. But we CANNOT deny children the opportunity every day to share their feelings and to give them EVERY opportunity to say what’s on their mind. If that means asking, “How was your day? Is there anything you want to tell me? I’m here to listen to you,” EVERY SINGLE DAY and with ABSOLUTE SINCERITY, even if means you won’t get a response, do it. Do it every day. Say something positive every day. I cannot stress the importance of positive reinforcement in a child’s life.
I rarely get into rants like this, but my heart is reeling. You think of bullying at this age as kids being mean and taunting, but not to this extent. It’s such an eye-opener. Something has to be done about effectively teaching children respect and kindness. About bullies getting the emotional help from school counselors that they need and being able to express themselves in a healthy and peaceful manner. And children need to feel safe to let adults know about bullying and to be sure that the adult will PUT A STOP TO IT.
I don’t know what else I can say. I know for sure that I will do my best to be a positive influence in all the young paths I cross from here on out, because you just never know. You just never know.