Hello, everyone. Cassie here.
Obviously it’s been a long while since I posted on this blog. I want to make a post about something serious (not that geekery isn’t a serious thing), but I want to let you know that by making this post, this is not an attempt to garner your sympathy and make a bunch of excuses for myself. I just really wanted to share my thoughts and feelings about a few things and let you know what’s been going on lately. I also wanted to inform you about the new direction of this blog, hence, the title (clever, huh?)
When I first started this project over a year ago, I was skeptical as to whether or not I could actually pull this thing off. Don’t get me wrong- I was excited about the concept and even more excited about the possibilty of getting an earlier than planned marriage proposal, but I seriously wondered if I could get this scarf to come to fruition. I knew it wouldn’t be an easy task seeing as I was still a novice at intarsia knitting and decided to forego planning and charting. Nonetheless, I embarked on this project skeptical, but optimistic.
As news of my scarf spread across the Internet like wildfire, my energy peaked and working on this scarf was a top priority. I knitted as much as I could each day, even if that was only a couple of inches at a time. I loved figuring things out and enjoyed watching my intarsia skills strenghen. I was even knitting other things like socks and simples scarves for myself and others. Then the economy took a nose dive and everything chaned in our household.
In November, December, and January, I had virtually no substitute teaching work. I decided to take on a part-time nannying job to make enough to pay the bills. My boyfriend started having concerns about paying for law school. Between all these stressors, time to sit down and enjoy knitting became more and more scarce. The stress from working hard and still not having enough money to pay bills was starting to get to us both and the joy I got from knitting began to evaporate as worry began to take its place.
I know many of you are suffering through this recession, too, and often times it’s our hobbies that go first. I’ll be honest- I haven’t touched the scarf in a little over two months. I rarely start any other knitting projects either, and when I do pick up the needles, I start a pointless swatch of garter stitch that only gets ripped out ten minutes later. I think I’ve started the same coffee cup cozy about twenty different times. I haven’t even visited my local yarn store in two months because I just don’t have the money to get new yarn or needles. Times have been tough.
In the past few weeks I’ve been scouring through my budget looking for anything superfluous to cut. When I came to the monthly expense I pay for this blog’s web hosting, I decided to make a decision about what I really want to do with this. I realized that the moping just has to stop. The only thing to do when you feel like you’ve lost control over several areas of life is to find something you can control. Something that can give you a sense of accomplishment and pride when there is so little to go around.
I decided to take control over the Mario Scarf project again and to this blog. I decided to give myself a goal that I really can accomplish in the face of such doubt in my life. I want to be able to get things moving on the scarf again and share the excitement all over aain. This means that I will have to put forth a sincere effort to knitting daily and to posting regularly. I’ve heard that in order to make something a habit, you have to repeat the behavior at least twenty-one times. This means that if I want to post on a regular basis, I will have to have reular content. For me, this means taking the blog in a new direction and making it more personal and opening it up to more of my life. I don’t intend on getting downright diary on y’all, but I’d like to include more of my daily life and crafts. Hopefully by doing this I will jump start my motivation to keep crafting an integral part of my routine and in return, post more often. So in the future, you will see updates about the Mario Scarf, but you will also see more about me, other knitting projects, probably the cats, and other crafty elements of my life.
I realize this may turn many of you off from my blog, but let me say this- I truly appreciate any and all readers of this blog. Your support from the beginning means so much to me and if you stop reading now, thanks for reading at all. There are so many great crafting blogs out there and I don’t know how I can offer material that breaks the mold, but I hope that you’ll continue on this journey with me and see where it heads.
This leads me to thanking the wonderful Emily Frank who has worked so hard to maintain a strong presence on this blog in my absence. Her posts have been just absolutely brilliant and have covered so many facets of geek crafting that it’s so hard to cut back. So, in order to allow Emily to continue posting, I decided to get her own domain name and sponsor her web hosting for the next three months. I definitely want Emily to stay on as a contributor to this blog, but I really feel that Emily deserves her own web identity since she is such a great blogger. In the near future, you’ll be able to find her at www.emily-frank.com and don’t worry- I’ll provide a link on my sidebar and will be promoting the hell out it!
If you’ve gotten this far, thanks. You’ve got a lot of patience. I can’t wait to embark on this semi-new journey and hope that you’ll join me.
Cassie